Date: January 17, 2008 at 14:13:19
From: Hannah
Age: 24
Subject: How To Get Over It!
My ex boyfriend and I were together for several years and lived together for one. We fought a lot, but most of our fights had to do with a mutual friend of ours, Jill, who was always calling him, etc. Before we got together my ex had liked Jill a lot and she had a boyfriend then, so they never got together. But she was on/off with her bf, and it seemed whenever she was "off" she would start chasing my man! And then I'd talk to her about it and she would insist it wasn't what it seemed, that she and my ex were just friends.
Then, seemingly out of the blue, he broke up with me. He kicked me out of our apartment since i was in school at the time and wasn't working so I wasn't paying rent. He insisted that there was no one else, it was just because we couldn't get along. Within a week he confessed to me that he and Jill were now dating.
That was over a year ago. Since then, he's cheated on Jill several times with me. Each time he swore he made a mistake leaving me for Jill and he wanted to break up with her and patch things up between us. Less than a month after the last time we both had sex, he and Jill got engaged. She's my friend on myspace (and I can't delete her because that would be too obvious) and she's always sending out messages about her upcoming wedding and updates and gushing about how in love they both are, etc etc. And it makes me ill. He really broke my heart, and I really loved him, and every time I see those messages or hear about their wedding from mutual friends, I feel like I am being stabbed. I THOUGHT I was over him, and I still think I'm over him...until I hear about him, or get a message from her bragging about how beautiful her wedding will be.
I just want to tell her that he was cheating on her with me the whole time. I just don't understand how he could cheat on her, telling me that he loved ME, and that he couldn't stand her, and then be engaged to her the very next second. Now, if I run into him, he completely ignores me and acts like he doesn't even know who I am. I know I can't tell her because she'd never believe me anyway. I just wish the pain would go away. Sometimes I feel like moving to a completely different place where I don't know anyone.
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