Date: May 10, 2008 at 10:33:28
From: sunshine
Age: 23
Subject: Re: anal sex serious ?
Well honestly. I pretty much know why I don't feel the same way about sex that most people do. I ended up lost and alone in a great big city and well actually I don't need to defend myself I was a prostitute for several months. I finally realized somethings about myself and my world and i left that life but I have trouble not equating sex with some horrible idea. Wheather its that the only way i could survive at the time was by having sex or that I made a point through all that time to not enjoy it I refused to make a sound good bad or indifferent, I refused to feel it period. So I know when I get turned on it feels good my boyfriend doesn't understand why I wouldn't want it. I don't fully understand either. i just hate the idea of sex. He does know this is the reason or that situation ahs a lot to do with my aversion to it. But latley he hs said taht he thought he could deal with me hating sex and now he is not sure he can for a lot fo reasons. I try I do and more times than not it has gotten better but sometimes he reacts poorly and sometimes he feels like I treat him like a trick if I do it just to please him I mean I guess I have way more serious issues that goes way beyond loveline advice forum and hopefully i will be in a position to get real help soon. We travel with his job and haven't been in a place long enough to have a normal life and that adds to our stresses. Hopefully as soon as we have the money we are renting a house and both of us plan on getting therapy possibly each seprately and together.
I have only ever been able to get off by clitoral stimulation and I have only ever got off during sex a handful of times if that many before my lifestyle change even. I can only get off by myslef or by oral from a guy. he knows that and he trys sex isn't always bad I just can't get to the point of looking forward to it or to go beyond doing it just to please him.....
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