Well, it makes a lot of sense that if you were doing sex for money you would have a negative attitude toward it today.
It also makes sense that he feels that you treat him like a trick, if you did it just to please him but didn't really like doing it yourself. For many or mostg men, sex is the best when we feel really, passionately desired. If you didn't have a problem with sex, you might find you were able to enjoy things you didn't necessarily think you would just because he loved them.
Do you like just being held? Do you like nude embraces? He's still going to want to get off, sure, but what about erotic physical contact that isn't genital. Maybe you could start with physical affection that isn't sexual, if you're not alredy doing a lot of that.
There are very few guys who would be happy with a lover who hated sex.
There are a lot of different kinds of therapies out there. A cognitive therapist who has experience treating sexual dysfunction and perhaps even former prostitutes would be a good bet. Keep looking until you find an answser. And, if you want to stay with your boyfriend, let him know that you are determined to work on it.
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